DarKMilkieS

2007-08-04T13:38:00.001+08:00

I HAVE MOVED!!

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bye,
enjoy

Why?

2007-07-19T23:06:00.001+08:00

The urge to blog is here again and as per normal, its the result of conflicting emotions swirling within.

How can you despise someone and yet emphatize with her situation?
How can u feel so much for someone yet fear engulfs you before you can say anything?
How can a simple Hi coupled with emotions and not just platonic friendships lead to confusion?
What is so confusing about it?
How do you make a choice out of 2 options that tear you apart, the only difference is whether it tears you up inside or rip you apart from the front?
Why do responses come in conflicting forms?
Why is a smile, that of spite and hatred, rather than friendship and care?

I have no answer, yet i step forth, and thus, let the consequences be unleashed upon me.
Let me ride the wave of hope, not knowing when it will crash on me, devouring what emotion i have left.
Void me of it, an empty shell i've become.
Controlled by rationality and diplomacy like a puppet ot his master, i carve my actions based on strings of slavery.
I have made my choice.
Dont stop me now

2007-07-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

Ok, at the request of one of my bestest Victorian brothers, John Cheo, I'm here to blog about the best thing that happen to VS this year. Victoria Challenge held every 4 years is like the superb thing that happens to VS where Victorians push themselves to the limit within 24 hours. The class of 06 was great with all the tiles and Jarren Loe again ensurin that anything that is undertaken must always have a shockin moment. Great to meet the crew, Christopher, George, Jarren, Firdaus, Faizullah, JieHao and so many others lah!Im too tired to blog everyone's name here. Bought a tile and have my name immortalized somewhere in the school.

Victoria School 131st speech day was even better lah. Got 2 awards, School Distinguished Service(NCC Land) and Star Awards 2006(Uniformed Groups). Really feel honoured to have gotten the Star Award as its like given to only 4 victorians and is the 2nd most distinguished award any Victorian can ever get. Really happy to have gotten it. Also, some people realli Imba takin home so many awards. I know i would never take an academic award so service award and all-rounded award suits me fine.

2007-07-13T23:22:00.001+08:00

17-17
Who cares bout my social life?
So, good luck linking the suicide to a measly DVD

2007-07-05T20:10:00.000+08:00

I feel dumb. Outright dumb. Really. Like ok, first things first. Im sorry for not updating this wretched place cause i was busy with stuff and what nots. Its not that im emo now that im bloggin, just an overwhelming urge to type although technically, im supposed to be doin my EOM. PEe-DOUBLE-EWW. Just here thinking back at all the stupid mistakes i made so far in life, (no, im not gonna name them obviously). I mean life definitely wouldnt be fun witout em but ya, somethings were just plain dumb. Some were huge lah, but alas, cant do nuts bout it. Fuck. Screw the cycles. Bitch

Gipsy Kings - Si tu me quieres

2007-06-20T23:16:00.001+08:00

Sexy song lah. Totally irresistable.

Translation of the chorus:
dance dance for me
and i'll sing for you
dance dance for me........if you want me!

2007-06-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

I SWEAR! CAN PEOPLE DONT BE SO RANDOM ALL AT ONCE! OMGxzz

2007-06-13T23:31:00.001+08:00

The sexiest emo song i've ever listened to, thanks to Saw

Rachel Yamagata - I want you
album Happenstance

You sat down next to me, like poetry to wine
Our window looked upon a yellow neon sign
I took your hand while you decided what to do
The only kiss I ever miss, I shared with you
The other cities hold a memory still of a place
But when I dream of London, I can only see your face

I want you
Or no one
No one else will do
You, or no one
No one is the only one
to fill the empty space I hold for you

You simplified me down to slogans on the wall
I took offense, but you were right about them all
My friends are telling me I shouldn't waste my time
But I can't concentrate until I make you mine
I'm drawing cards and making wishes down by the well
Who would've known I'd lose myself in the old hotel

I want you
Or no one
No one else for me
You, or no one
No one else is strong enough
To slow me down in time to set me free
I want you
Or no one
No one else is fine
Oh, you, or no one
No one is the only one
To fill me up until I make you mine

2007-06-12T22:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i believe that rationality is not one of my strong points. Other than the fact that im all emo half the time, even with a clear mind, rationality does not show up as often as i'd like. No fault of anyone, just that im thinkin in a non-mainstream way for some reason. Im anti-establishment, yes, and i do have a rebellious streak but these too require a certain amount of rationality. Talk bout ahvin a brain that aint wired properly, but i guess many would know base on wat i do and the choices i make. I'm blinded i guess, and i seriously dont know wat i want. Oh well, muggin is not wat i want but im forced to. For those with little or no ability to figure out this blog, i dont talk bout muggin often.

Post Production part

2007-06-09T18:05:00.000+08:00

AC Dance Post-Production Party was a blast

Great food, songs, company and loads of dance. Can't really pin-point any highlight cause every part of it was unique. Just to list a few, hte pocy game, DINNER, Godwin's magic show, the nearly half and hour of video screening and non-stop dancing and dunking. Potcomm is really on a high now,everyone with all that creative energy and enthusiasm. Well, let the muggings begin!

"eh the drain very polluted. Let's go clean it"- aretha

2007-06-06T20:37:00.000+08:00

Violence is never the solution. Its the only one.

Well, i dont really know who actually reads this place now that i've removed the hit counter. It's more like i dont really care who reads it now.

Lactose intolerance only setting in after 17 years of existence

GP is starting to be a bane in my academic life

Social life status: Non-existent

And for the record, the blogger of this blog is of Arab, Boyanese and Chinese descent.

I wanna club in mu uniform. Khaki pants ,crisp white shirt and ankle socks with neon orange shoes. Typical anti-establishment Victorian. Hey, we were taught how to think for ourselves. Im thinkin! Btw, the secret success to doin well for your a-maths paper at the O'level is to have a game of bridge with the people wou have been muggin with jsut hours before the paper starts. For History elec stuents, play carrom, lose, play guitar, sleep and when you wake up paly bridge and win by a margin of at least 3 sets, buy lotsa coffee and have all those ass of your friends that take geog elect to sms u on how their secondary school career ended a day before you do and that they are happily lounging away.

Damn, i love thinkin back at the days of secondary school sucks. I mean in JC the babes are like woah(wait, it was non-existent in VS, what am i saying) but ya. Secondary school was the time where you are given all the license to act like a kid but be judged as a grown-up. cool.

2007-06-03T17:57:00.000+08:00

There's one thing i dont get bout injuries. They never seem to heal no matter what you do. Like, its as if we were born perfect for whatever we were supposed to do, yet once its broken once, no one can fix it. That sucks.

2007-06-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

Allow me to love you although it goes only one way
Let me dream of you although i may never say
Speak to me though you dont mean anything
As much as it hurts, its my conscience that thinks

Plead the light shines through
I lied many times, even to you
Bring forth the redemption i seek
Never had the chance, stabbed before i could speak

As the world fades
My eyes shutting everything out
Leaving the torture
Yet my hearts still shouts

Those moments of anguish, hurt and pain
As the soul floats, nothing more i could gain
The sun shone bright that day
As much as it did, what i wanted passed me by on its way

2007-06-02T00:26:00.000+08:00

If you base me on my blog, then yes im emo. But please do understand that this is an outlet to let go of everthin negative that im feeling. The rationale behind me sharin all this is so that when im meeting the people im bloggin bout, i only think of the positives as everythin negative has been left behind. Of course nearly eveyone would hit back sayin that im flaming them and that the only reason im able to see eye to eye with them again is due to the fact that i've in a way settled the score with them. What ever it is, its the only outlet i know of, am comfortable with and please dont take anything personally while reading this.

2007-06-01T00:40:00.000+08:00

I dont know why, but suddenly, songs have all been sounding very cliche in relation to this wrecked soul bloggin here. It's like my life is a playlist in someone's Ipod and suddenly, the playlist got downloaded into my com. Crap
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Artist: Mcfly
Song: I've Got You
Album: Wonderland

the world would be a lonely place
without the one that puts a smile on your face
so hold me 'til the sun burns out
i won't be lonely when i'm down

'cause i've got you to make me feel stronger
when the days are rough and an hour feels much longer

i never doubted you at all
the stars collide, will you stand by and watch them fall? (by and watch them fall)
so hold me 'til the sky is clear
and whisper words of love right into my ear

'cause i've got you to make me feel stronger
when the days are rough and an hour feels much longer
yeah when i got you
oh to make me feel better
when the nights are long they'll be easier together

looking in your eyes
hoping they won't cry
and even if you do
i'll be in bed so close to you
hold you through the night
and you'll be unaware
but if you need me i'll be there

yeah i got you
oh to make me feel stronger
when the days are rough and an hour feels much longer
yeah when i got you to make me feel better
when the nights are long they'll be easier together

2007-05-31T21:59:00.000+08:00

You know, i should ask Maroon 5 to pay me for using my life story hear. Of course dont take some parts literally cause they exaggerated it. However, this song actually somes up what has happened so bleedy well anyone who has known wat was goin on should figure what the uncanny resemblance. It's bitter sweet but it puts behind me 2 months of what i've felt. Only she can change my mind.

Wake up with blood-shot eyes
Struggled to memorize
The way it felt between your thighs
Pleasure that made you cry
Feels so good to be bad
Not worth the aftermath, after that
After that
Try to get you back

[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you

[Chorus]
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
(Yeah)
So this is goodbye

[Verse]
God damn my spinning head
Decisions that made my bed
Now I must lay in it
And deal with things I left unsaid
I want to dive into you
Forget what you're going through
I get behind, make your move
Forget about the truth

[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you

[Chorus]
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye

[Breakdown]
I've been here before
One day I'll wake up
And it won't hurt anymore
You caught me in a lie
I have no alibi
The words you say don't have a meaning
Cause

[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
And I...and so this is goodbye

[Chorus]
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye
So this is goodbye, yeah [x3]

2007-05-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

This post has been edited(sorta):
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Restless was a dream which i didnt want to end. It was the time was the happiest and not having any worries, taking everything thats thrown at me in my stride and always just enjoying the ups and downs.

That dream has ended. The memories cast in stone i will always cherish, remember and will always be the best times of my life. I dont want to thank people individually cause although credit is due, i want to take the experience as a whole where everyone was important.

Now, the confusion returns albeit even worse than before. It hits me harder than i estimated. The battered within reflects of a smile, deceiving others, manipulating some. Pain is not an option. Suffering is. What i cannot have, no longer matters to me. Prey comes in various forms. Letting one go wont do any harm. It actualli solves eveything. But at what cost? Can i afford it? For her sake, i will let go. Brandishing the same pain for 2 years.. i no longer feel the misery. Its just a phase. A stupid pitstop making me lose precious seconds in the race. A bad investment, wasted thoughts , seeking redemption.

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I think this need some editing as it was posted on impulse. Lookin back and after some contemplation, its not a bad investment. Realli, it just that the returns were not what i expected. And why the fuck am i relating my love life in economic terminology. Really, i just wanted her.. wanted you..but .. no one can always have everything in life they want can they?

2007-05-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

At NAFA.

Lee foundation Theatre.

Restless IV: Timeless.

23rd to 25th May.

Ac Dancers are all rocking it.

My inspiration: Her

Why? She makes me want her

How? Being who she is

When? Ever since THAT game

What else? She is the only thing keepin me goin.

2007-05-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

Life today was bitter sweet

Bitter-Realization of the subconcious.
Not putting in 100% for my passion

Sweet-Her. Thats it

2007-05-14T00:59:00.000+08:00

Listenint to automatic by utada hikaru-by far my fav jap song. I feel fake. Like im nt showing people the real me. God help me. I cant take it anymore. The front im putting. I cant keep up with wat ppl around me want anymore.

2007-05-10T00:14:00.000+08:00

Well, if dance is the best thing that has happened to me its definitely not without the sacrifices. Im totally zoned out now and although im thankful for the time spent with my fellow dancers, it just seems that i cant run away from it. On top of that, dance is my only way to let go off the stress that i feel. However, the stress now originates from dance and my problems are linked to it. Its like a love-hate relationship. I definitely enjoy the time there, but its been plagued by a host of things im nt so sure off. Those few of u whom actualli i have told u bout the things im facing would know wat im talking bout. I had hoped that we could have been closer as a result fo all the stress yet it seems that we onli drift apart even more cause we are just too zoned out and we require our time alone. Alone. Im sick and tired of being in such a situation. I dont wanna be lonely anymore. I dont wanna have emo nights not being able to sleep because of what i perceive others think of me. I dont want to go to school to avoid people. i dont want to go to dance to enjoy myself but only to face the problems of others when i have mine to settle.

Black Dog Bone

2007-05-07T20:40:00.000+08:00

Well, its post no 200! I decided to not blog this post until i was feeling high and happy. Confusion has all been cleared. Im enjoying dance now although there was a hiccup sometime back. Everything seems to gettin in place. Manchester United are champions. What can i say? The only thing now is that the feeling is kept in a song. Too bad its in malay so dont ask me to translate.

2007-04-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

I didnt realised that my 199th post would be one where i would rant in frustration and just plain anger at what the hell i've been compelled to do and the after effects of it. I hate it first when people force me to do things which i hate to do and also for the fact that at the same time, taking a swipe at what i do and claim that is the only thing i do. like wth! i also have external ccas and responsibilities ok. damn it. fine. now see the side of me you have never seen before.

SYF 2007

2007-04-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

Anglo Chinese Junior College

Serial no:122

" A Tribute to Fosse"

Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging 2007

GOLD WITH HONOURS!

Im realli so bleedy , damn happy for all the SYF dancers as we've grown together life family.

The Dancers

Steph, Kenny, Candice, Adam, Malvin, Diane, Shu En, Joanne Goh, Louis, Shu Jia, Ie Ching, Benjamin, Shawn, Peter, Elizabeth, Lydia, Perry, Ying, Joy, Aretha, Richenda, Joan, Li Shaan, Edlyn, Cheryl, Joanne Chin and Hann Bin

All of us really worked hard and hats off for pushing it and being even closer when times got tougher. All those lifts, turns, sweat, blood and tears did not go to waste. I'm proud to say im part of the AC Dance family because of all of you. Learning and gaining something from each of you, i just hope i can give it all back one day.

Crew(fellow dancers)

Lesley, Vivian, Karin, Irma and Eunice

A whole load of thanks for making such a wonderful backstage presence for us and providing that sense of security with our props and costumes. Thanks for checking that we zipped our pants and put on all that head gear and what nots properly, helping those who needed help to strip as fast as possible and clearing up after us. Great respect for you guys. Though wat u do may not be the most glam job on Earth, yet its the best kinda support we could ask for on stage.

The Supporters and Everyone else

We couldnt have done it without you. Cheering us one, writing encouraging messages, hearing our stupid excuses for not joining you all for things. Well, we went with your energy and it drove us to where we are now. Let's make Restless an even bigger performance for all of us to be proud of.

2007-04-20T00:18:00.000+08:00

HOLA people!
I know i havent been bloggin for a long time but wat was i supposed to do when i had to choose between sleeping or bloggin and when sleep time has now been a daily 4 hour a day thing.

Dance Camp was a BLAST!. I honestly can say that AC Dance is like a family to me now.

Something funny in the midst of my research that i came across:
"I wrote most of these songs at the void deck of the flat I live in. Many a times the police came around to take down my IC, name, blah blah, for the rackus I was making at 3am in the morning. I Don't really blame the residents there, what with my subpar playing and what could be considered unwanted noise. But I always enjoy the alone time in the morning. The cops probably disagree, bu they're a friendly blue bunch just doing their job. They came along once, and they asked me why I had to play downstairs at 3am. I told them "I Don't want to wake my mum up". and the cops rightfully replied "So you want to wake up the REST of the neighbourhood?" haha, that part kinda slipped my mind."- Levan Wee

2007-04-09T23:01:00.000+08:00

"I want her to nibble and not bite"
Honestly people, im actually not in really happy mood yet im listening to happy songs but then ah, im usually emo eh. Sian. Irony of life i suppose.

I want her, cant get her,
wanna buy her, cant afford her,
i wanna bite, she kills me,
she wanna kill me, yet says im not worth it

2007-04-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

ok, just felt the need to blog sumthing. Actually i dont have much to speak of. But rather the fingers are getting itchy and need abit of typing. Not that i hadn't had enough with the PI, history outline and malay essay. Dang the world where we all need to be hardworking and all. It also occured to me that im actually living too much in fantasy. Note the fact that im not using the word fantasizing cause the readers of this blog have too great an imagination. yes christopher, you included. As i was sayin, we need to chill out more. Im not flaming the Govt or anything, but does the 5-day week really work when u actualli now have more work since everyone ASSUMES! you have the freaking weekend off.

Actually you dont.

But we're still gonna give you more work.

We're ASSuming you are free on weekends.

Work is more important than family.

No such thing as free time.

You want free time, pay it with your job.

If you're a student, welcome to detention

2007-04-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

Expletive of the week: Essays

They are ruining my life. The only thing that keeps me going these days is AC Dance. Ironically, its the thing that takes up most of time. Sigh.

The blessing in disguise.

The hopes, our demise.

The pain and anguish

The joy and happiness.

The fall of me

The fall of darkness

2007-04-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

"Why be emo when you can have fun?"- the best nonsensical sentence i've heard this week.

2007-03-31T21:45:00.000+08:00

Ok, been sick past few days and all and missing stuff and not doing my homework and all. So now.

Question of the year:

Can't Victoria School remain as an-all boys instituition that provides the best holistic secondary school education anywhere in the world?

2007-03-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

Being tired from reading history, i decided to do some mindless blog surfing on the net when i happen to come across this article which in a way has to do with all the hoo-ha surrounding this blog the past few days. It just caught my attention. Happy reading and it really helps in GP essays.
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Why Men Fall in Love?

Judging from the kind of mail we get at Men's Health from men seeking relationship advice, I can tell you this definitively about men: When a man falls for a woman, he falls hard. Men love to be in love. While men often get stereotyped as single-minded sex-seekers, the truth is that a man's stomach churns like a slushy machine when he's in those initial stages of the perfect relationship.

When you consider that half of men say that they're currently not with their soul mates, that means a heck of a lot of slushy machines are waiting to be turned on. What are they waiting for? What makes a man fall in love? After you rule out the obvious intangible laws of chemistry, attraction, and being in the right place at the right time that kick-start many a relationship, I think the question really becomes this: What makes a man fall -- and stay -- in love? About 60 percent of men deem friendship the most important thing in a relationship (sex comes in at a skimpy 8 percent, according to a national Harris Interactive poll), but let's delve a little deeper. What exactly does that mean, and what kind of woman does a man really want? With full acknowledgement that men's tastes in women are as unpredictable as the plotline of "24," these are some of things that many men value in "the one."

A Woman with a Passion in Something Other Than Him

Yes, it's nice to be doted over. Yes, it's nice to be pampered. Yes, it's nice to be with a woman who showers you with compliments, neck kisses, and all of her attention. But there's a virtual Great Wall of China between a fleeting, flirtatious glance and the kind of attraction that can last a lifetime. Many men say they like a woman who's immersed in something else other than the relationship -- be it her work, or her sport, or whatever her "thing" is. Why? The passion she shows for something else confirms her inherent goodness, her personal drive, her independence. All pluses in the woman we're hoping to spend a few decades with.

A Woman with No Problem with Guy Time

Every relationship has to choreograph the time-together dance. Once a couple elevates from casual to serious, it goes through that period when most waking and sleeping minutes are spent together. But at some point in the dance, one person will call a time out from the music of coupledom, and try to spend more time with his or her friends -- while still being careful not to step on any feet in the process. Even when they're with the most perfect woman, men still crave the occasional space to spend golfing or drinking or doing whatever (64 percent of men are happy to have the time to themselves when their wives or girlfriends have plans). Men love, appreciate, and are thankful for women who respect and endorse (and not complain about) his need to have a few testosterone mixers. Don't worry, March Madness will be over in just a few weeks!

A Woman with a Strut

Her strut in the bar may have been part of his initial attraction. The strut from the bedroom to the bathroom after the first night together may have been pure visual ecstasy. But the strut that happens day in and day out is one of the major attractors for a man. What do I mean by the strut? It's that attitude, that sassiness, that confidence, that charisma, that charm that shows she can be a little bold and little daring. In a recent post I talked about the line between a woman being confident and a woman being so aggressive that she turns men away, but the truth is that in certain aspects of relationships, men want women who have the strut. Men want to be with women who challenge them, who push them, and who take the lead some of the times. And that's as true in the bedroom as it is in planning their next weekend getaway. The danger? While it can be insanely attractive, that strut of confidence can also swing a man 180 degrees -- if she uses it in other places, like to flirt with other guys, to become a relationship dictator, or to pick a fight with his mom in front of the whole family. He'll point that kind of strut right out the door.

A Woman with a Good Taste in Ties

Okay, so we don't really care about the ties per se. But what we care about is a woman's ability to give us a little-and this is a key word-gentle guidance. I know Freudian followers will say that it's a man's need to be mothered, but it's more than that. Every relationship is a give and take, and guys will definitely take women who can warn us when our new soul patch looks stupid, who can guide us to the perfect suit and shirt combo for an upcoming job interview, who can help them make decisions without being harsh or judgmental. Guys like to project that they know what they're doing and that they don't need any help. Women who can help steer us, without aggressively grabbing the wheel, are the most treasured copilots

2007-03-20T21:59:00.000+08:00

Irrationalism, Absolutist Fundamentalism, Psychotic Delusions, Emotional Manifestations.

What is gonna happen when all these 4 things infuse together and slowly drip its way into the intellectual structure that allows me to think in a human sorta way and corrupts every inch of it?

What happens when the limit is stretched and the boundaries can no longer contain the expansion,yet at the same time, the overwhelming volume of it all must be released breaking the framework in order to accomodate a greater cause?

How do i define that greater cause and wouldnt that definition suit my own motives, intentions and ideals?

Im ranting now cause im not sure whether this blog is acually serving its purpose which was to release my tensions but looks like its onli cause me to go more emo..

2007-03-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

"Emo Bezerker"-Sirhan Hazicko

Yup, this blog has gotten all the more controversial with just a sentence in red added at the bottom of my post which was the result of highness that would not subside. Its removed for the record so dont bother snooping around the blog for it ok. Yea, now the blog is back to its old mundane self till the next time when depression and coffee kicks in within my bodily system stimultaneously to create such a talking point.

2007-03-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

Im not brooding.

Im just going to my emo mode.

Cough syrup sounds good( Im just kidding George)

2007-03-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

Challenge Quest 2007:
Let's just say that the title is on loan and its been pretty difficult for us to have kept that shining shield for the past 3 years. We'll be back for it i assure you.

This to note:
1.I realise that i might bite
2.Im actually very nice in a mean sorta way.
3.And that im in a pursuit of a teeth op to get my canine teeth a bit more sharper then it is already
4. I listen to that one song everytime i go home from HQ.
5. I want to dye my hair blue afterwhich do a funky shave on the sides

2007-03-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

to further emphasize how kinky i can get.. here goes..

¼GW²G rox A man without fear is a man without hope says:
it's gd to revolt n bite sometimes
[Okami]-Changed number to 96369380 says:
HAHA
¼GW²G rox A man without fear is a man without hope says:
to literally bite her,u should luv it
[Okami]-Changed number to 96369380 says:
..
[Okami]-Changed number to 96369380 says:
either way dude.
[Okami]-Changed number to 96369380 says:
she biting me and me biting her.. i have no qualms about it
¼GW²G rox A man without fear is a man without hope says:
haha

2007-03-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

Im back cause i feel guilty for having a blog and not blogging. Orientation 2 was ok. JAE was crap. Christopher Saw owes me another cup of coffee frm starbucks cause he got to VJ.Im posted to ACJC. My stomach hurts. SYF prac has been great. Angel-mortal in dance was superb for the fact that my angel was the MOST PERFECT angel lah!.

STEPHANIE!

Dance President!

OMGOMGOMG!

And it should be a crime for anyone who does not wanna go for Restless IV. Caning.

2007-03-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

A few more hours to that extra value in my age..

IM 17!!! WOOHOO!!!..

in a few mins time

2007-02-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

What happens when u have a friend that works at a Japanese restaurant and then has free time to draw!

2007-02-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

"Lo and behold, a dentally-challenged gothic angel will descend from the ceiling"-Deborah

Something she thought might interest me if this were to come out for devotions.

My convo with Sirhan

2007-02-20T21:51:00.000+08:00

♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
BUT LOOK AT US!
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
ITS RARE TO FIND DECENT MALAY GUYS OUT THERE!
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
WE'RE A DYING BREED!
[Okami]-I wanna cut my tongue while frenching a gal with braces says:
DUH!
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
LIKE COME ON!!!!!
[Okami]-I wanna cut my tongue while frenching a gal with braces says:
THERE"S ONLI ME AND YOU LAH!
[Okami]-I wanna cut my tongue while frenching a gal with braces says:
THE BREED IS DEAD!
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
like.....if she ever thought that im hardworking and all....looking at where im going to
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
.....haha
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
nope...not only me and you
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
hahahhaha
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
still got ZAKI!
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
hahahahaha
[Okami]-I wanna cut my tongue while frenching a gal with braces says:
HAHA
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
hmmm maybe thats about it...
[Okami]-I wanna cut my tongue while frenching a gal with braces says:
im gonna post this on my blog
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
but i guess he's more lucky than us...
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
coz he alrdy has a girl LOL!
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
even tho the girl is june.....she's still a girl and someone special to him....
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
huh proves june knows how to pick guys
♠sirhan hazC sembawang blues says:
ARGH!

2007-02-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

Some nostalgic moments of 2006:

2007-02-19T18:50:00.000+08:00

Lunar New Year resolution:I wanna cut my tongue while frenching a gal with braces

2007-02-18T22:26:00.000+08:00

What does im fine really mean?
I'm freaked out, insecure, neurotic and emotional.

2007-02-17T15:17:00.000+08:00

Well, let's say i'm back to my oldself after a roller coaster night of emotions and unsureness. Tmr is CNY so let's just celebrate while celebating from stupid things. Well, there was lotsa stupid things that i was reminded of yesterday. Things done, said and worst of all, left alone. LEave me be as an ego-centric youth of today, felling for myself and not others, drowning within my pride and swallowing the bitter pill of loneliness. Enjoy.

2007-02-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

So, why did i do what i do? Seriously i have no idea. It's intriguing to myself that i can, for lengthy periods of time, don't realise what the hell i'm doin till it's done. Damage done. It's a weird feeling lah put it that way. Never experienced it before. Well my mind,wallet and heart hurts so i think i'll just zone out for 4 days thorughout CNY and then come back to skool in a zombie-like manner on wednesday. Orange Zombie.

2007-02-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

OK, im bloggin because someone told me that i didnt update my blog frequently enough. So here i am bloggin lah. Well, been busy( I'm never free).O level's was a big disgustin O. Got same points lah as in prelims. Didnt improve much. Actualli i gt less distinctions now. Damn. Oh what the hell. To the person that is leavin and told me to update my blog, I'm gonna miss ya. I don't want to get emotionally attached but i think that is happening. The fact that you will be around for only 3 more days hurts but its a blessing to get to know you in the first place. Im stayin in AC. Will provide a breakdown of my disgusting results soon. Finally a break frm dance. It's not that i don't like to dance but it's been very tiring. 1SA5 rocks lah. Happy Valentine's Day people.

Sexy Alway5.

Live your Dance. Dance your Life

2007-02-04T13:58:00.000+08:00

Live your Dance, Dance your Life

This words are what i've been holding onto this past few weeks. Been screwed by the back injury of mine but lucky for Salonpas External Pain reliever, the pain kinda dissolved a way for a while before stiffening the whole lower back lah. Dang that sucks. Saying goodbye to the wateva was left of my social life thanks to SYF not that its a bad thing. Maybe i should stop complaining. Well, i get to miss X-country so im quite glad i dont have to run for 5 km for no reason what-so-ever.

2007-01-24T21:29:00.000+08:00

Woah.. Its been a rough week with all sort of things to do i dont even have time for my little intimate space on the cyber highway. Now in AC Dance which has been a total blast lah!. Btw, now training up for SYF and to think i have to learn how to tap dance n do a split in te course of 2 weeks and 3 months respectively. Im enjoyin the company of 1SA5!! Its a not so open class but everyone is really nice. Miss my OG though. And my mortal has no idea bout me lah. Funniest twist of fate happened. I just cant believe it lah. My advice to the guy: Pick someone your own size.

2007-01-17T22:01:00.000+08:00

Lets say love and life are playing a very nasty game of poker with me. My card sucks currently and they're raising the bid. Not sure to fold or follow. Well, one last card to come out. Damn.

Enough of emo for today.

AC Dance.

Live for Dance. Dance for life.

2007-01-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

May i have your permission to decapitate your head.

As its has severed from your body

Stuff it

Hang it on my wall.

And enjoy the sinister smile the rest of my life

Till i join your presence There.

2007-01-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

I waited, yet you never came
Your presence i felt, yet not the same
The breezes brought warnings of gale
I shiver, alone and pale

You stood before me, a mirage of truths
Lies were lost, accusations void of proof
The tingle, the joy, the pain, the agony
Together as one, it sneaked within me

Not able to face you, i bail with my heart
All i asked for was a new start
The freedom i gained brought new confines
A new prison awaits, i saw within the signs.

2007-01-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

Orientation the past 2 days was ok. Met up with new people and hoped that they would be more enthu.. A BIT mroe enthu. But then, we won every single challenge today so SIREN ROCKS!.

Saralonde, Saralonde!

2006-12-29T21:44:00.001+08:00

Your presence brings me misery

Like a drug im addicted to the pain

The euphoria i attain

Each time, never the same

I yearn the misery

Vision blurs, partially insane

Nothing i hear, only your name

Slit the scars, the blood soon drains

The smile hides the implosion

The heart, shattered by the explosion

Like shards from a broken mirror

The splinters u let fall on me, my final rain

2006-12-29T21:44:00.000+08:00

Your presence brings me misery

Like a drug im addicted to the pain

The euphoria i attain

Each time, never the same

I yearn the misery

Vision blurs, partially insane

Nothing i hear, only your name

Slit the scars, the blood soon drains

The smile hides the implosion

The heart, shattered by the explosion

Like shards from a broken mirror

The splinters u let fall on me, my final rain

2006-12-28T13:46:00.000+08:00

RAWR!.. Went to the zoo yesterday with george, lynette, ria, june and sirhan our zookeper cum tour guide cum singing chaperone. It was wet lah with the rain all the time and all the funny nonsense u get when u are with this kinda people. From bullying the kids or gettin bullied by the kids at the bubble bowl to starin at immoblie crocs and pointin out to underaged kids the mating of 2 pigs. George(siamang!) with his new rendition of fire-in-the-zoo and that convo between nette and sirhan on wat its like to die by a car and the distinctions made by the kinda car you get knocked down by. Lynette thinks that camels vibrate when they actually were shivering. Also hamadryas baboons are now called as "ham my dry ass".

Sirhan: DAmn suay if kena knocked down by cab.. if i have to kena knocked down by a car at least a ferrari and i'll go happy. Worst if kena knocked down my lorry carrying pigs.
Nette: Then u die un-halal death.

wtf.
p.s. George is a FRIEND OF THE ZOO!

2006-12-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

Deathwish Series one.

She says she loves me

I say i love her

We Kiss

She draws her knife

My throat, she slits

Hers, she slits

We lay in the pool of blood

I hold her hand

And she holds mine

2006-12-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

Listening to a song by combichrist right now. Really dont know what to blog although there's this dyin urge to add more non-sense here than there is already on my tagboard.

2006-12-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

Back to my favourite yin yang blog. Just came back from KL and boy was it a killer to the weight i lost at Clt course. Ate till i drop lah. Well, not realli complainin cause i had good food but then again it was lotsa window shoppin and my mom and her adventurous spirit. Xmas mood all round and none for Hari Raya Haji. Sidenote, infatuation stinks. Told myself that no matter wat, i better keep my mouth shut bout it. well, im still not tellin.To those who know, SHUT UP! Thank you.

2006-12-17T21:18:00.000+08:00

So, its been a while since i updated the yin yang column. Sorry lah, im more busy now than pre-O's. Just got back from Clt course and just got my bars. POP nite was a madhouse of pandemonium and euphoria infused all into one. Best part bout it was the fact that met loads of old friends and definitely enjoyed the company of new ones made. Also, if you people think ncc is made up of back-breakin idiots who do drills every friday evening for a living, screw you!. Fiesta was realli par-tay!. Everyone was slow to warm up but in the end, everyone was in boogie wonderland. Haha. I went there happy, was dissapointed in between but definitely went back happier!52nd!

2006-12-03T18:03:00.000+08:00

Enjoyin my last few moments of freedom. Bookin in later. ughh. Well, as long as i got great company, i dont mind. Shit in the forest this week. Open experience you could say. Morals leart, never eat curry buns and be picky eaters like girls to avoid diarrhoe. Not realli lookin forward to the week per say, much rather just to be in the company fo realli nice people. It was fun all theguys gettin a girls name and the girls gettin a guys name to make the whole gal vs guys things played down. Its all fun now at Syndicate 6.

2006-11-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

Goin off fer the week. Met Xiaomin on the bus just now. Still the same cute girl with that sweet voice but now with a dash of sexiness. Im gd at this kinda shite. Coffee cravings coming at me out of a sudden now. Tryin to induce bowel movement with external chemicals.

22nd december

2006-11-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

22nd December- World Orgasm Day

PAE

2006-11-23T14:46:00.000+08:00

Its official
Application for PAE
1) ACJC
2)Temasek
3)Meridian
4)Tampines

2006-11-23T12:42:00.000+08:00

How the hell do you come up with stupid one liners to keep yer blog readers entertained i have no idea. Fickle minded numbskulls.

2006-11-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

Hope Chris gets to TJC so Sian Ying will kill him. He irritates me. RoaR!.
Applyin to ACJC btw.

Bridge

2006-11-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

Won 13 nil yesterday
Lost 13 nil today

Short Entry

2006-11-11T22:34:00.000+08:00

My brain is draining too fast. Ughh, cant think no more. Goin to sleep with nightmares of weird crap waiting. Ha!, Lovesick days are over and now then the guys start to get all the heart pain. Well, those were the days. Now its all over and nothing seems to have repaired. Time heals all wounds.. Bullcrap.

the hurt

2006-11-05T20:07:00.000+08:00

My mind was poisoned
My heart was torn
My soul bleeds

The body grieves
The mind weary
The tattered soul

Fell i did
through the web
friendship, love, deciet

Killed, revived and executed
The confusion reels
The light now leaves

Darkness felt
Forginess withdrawn
Lost within, i cry

Inspiration

2006-11-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

Ok, this gloomy place will go once im done with my O's. Everytime i feel down, certain Victorians never fail to cheer me up. I love them like my own brothers. Well, most of them anyway.

So, here goes. In no order of merit, some people who have in one way or another made an impression on me during my 4 years in VS.Im sorry if i left you out so please tag me ok!. Its the people from the class of 2006 and to these people, i wish you all the best for the O's and may we one day come back with our walking sticks, dentures and hearing aids and do another Victorian Cheer at the parade square.

Should any of these guys go before that occasion, i would regret not having it sooner.

The guys are( no order of merit): George,Li Wei, Izzat, Nazri Chun Han, Ling Chung, Mervin, Fadhil, Khairy Mujtaba, Terence, Konrad, Jacob, Jansen, Wee Ho, Shannon, Sheng Wei, Jonathan, Samuel, Nicholas Pang, Matthias, Eng Hwee, MX,Junkai,LianKai, Eng Loong, Navin, Jia Xian, Jarren, Daryl, Faizullah, Christopher, Jie Hao. Ren Hao, Chao Xiang, Xian Yi, Daxter, Eugene Tan, Eric, ZheNan, Hong Jiang, Gavin, Xian Jun, Chia How, Edo, Matias, ZiJie,Shaun Oon,Yi Tian, Danial Foo, Sontipat,Kenny How,Hui Neng, Reuel Kong,Calvin Han, Sufiyan Hadi, Hafiz Zainuddin, Bryan, Jason Shariff,Firdaus, Jin Jian,Ramanan, Jaymond, Darius,Jun Xiang,Dafril, Shiraj, Guo Chen,Melvin, Ian,Moenawir,Reuben, Gordon, Jian Han, Edwin, Qahhar, Kelvinderdas,Nicholas Knag, Naresh, Muwahiddin, Justin, Josiah, Gabriel, Aloysious,Amos, Dominic, Shane, Wayne, Lee Jin, Shuib, Freddy tay,Zhi Quan, Cheng Sheng, Benedict, Kejian, Adri, Yane, Khairy Fadhly, Akmal, Yap Heng, Seth, Dennis, Akbar, Jun He, Jia Wei, Jason Chua,Wai Chung,Nejamin, Lye Huat,Emmanuel, Ming Hao, Timothy, Thosaporn, Danial Pflug, John Cheo,Jabez, Afiq, Alvin, Raiz,Austin, Kah Siong,Wira, Hong Han,Farhan Hassan,Boon Siew, Zikri,Syed Abdullah, Visakan, Fendy,Kenneth Phua/Ngiam, Ting Wei,Furqan, JunJie, Jeremy Ho,Martin,Ji Qian, Yeow Boon, Zhi Yang.

You guys are the best.

Jedi Terminology

2006-10-30T21:32:00.000+08:00

Bridge.
Fever.
Distractions.

All of it can be explained in simple Jedi Terms. Light side/Dark Side

Random

2006-10-28T20:33:00.000+08:00

Random thoughts are nice once in a while. Aunty at Each-A-Cup thought i was crazy for the weird bubble tea mix.(Blue Coral and Peppermint Ice blended). Its my favourite. I got my voodoo doll. Given a name to it. Will pierce that bleedy head of hers(yes its a female voodoo doll) till i have eno more stress.

No, im not trying to voodoo anyone. Its just that i wanted a stress reliever. It helps. Now its got 2 screws in her head. Planing to put a 3rd one later. Ok. Okami is on a mugging spree and would like Starbucks to apply for a Halal Cert. Thank You.

P.S. To all that have read this blog. I got a fetish for cute girls wth braces, black nail polish and short hair. Me, the psycho.Thanks Christopher

Vodka

2006-10-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

A little sumthin from a fren who swears *hic* she doesnt drink. I love her anyways. So, enjoy this piece about Vodka

Oh my darling friend,
drown yourself.
Push me down your throat
Till i'm under your skin,
Tingling.

Let's just suffocate your sorrows.
Do you feel queasy?
Scurry to the ladies'.
Fret not, there's more of me in the bottle.

Fill yourself up,
I'll cloud your peepers.
Everything'll be a blur and you'll feel right.
There's nothing that can measure up to me.

So he's gone,
But no more lonely evenings.
You've got me, my sweet.
I'll be your meaning.

As he comes creeping again quietly
To the back of your head.
Mash him with malice.
I'll clean up the remains.

The Graph

2006-10-26T21:00:00.000+08:00

Well, so, today's physics prac was the epitome of ambiguity the British asses from cambridge could come up with. Still so long way to go. Draggin myself through all this crap. Why bother.

Voodoo Doll

2006-10-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

I wanna get a voodoo doll. Anybody know where i can get one?

[Okami][Love her best friend][Be my First] says:
anyways.. do u know where i can get one of those voodoo dolls
Victorian :- 'cause this crazy mixed up beauty is all that we have says:
what voodoo dolls?
[Okami][Love her best friend][Be my First] says:
ok.. u dont know.. never mind..
Victorian :- 'cause this crazy mixed up beauty is all that we have says:
dude, if i knew how to practise voodoo, do you think ms leow would still be alive by now?
[Okami][Love her best friend][Be my First] says:
HAHA.. well done Chris

The 4D Class

2006-10-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

Lets go through every member of 4D. What i think bout them after 2(sum 4) years.

Arunav Bora: OMG. Scholar to DOTA freak. Dude, please stop DOTA and MAPLE!. You are bleedy 16 already so please restraint and go study lah. You are a scholar lah!.Well, he can beat my record for no. of hours of sleep in class thats for sure.

Arwinder Singh: Singh by day, Black Ranger by night. The guy that rekindle my love for the Rangers. Always waving to teachers, uncles, aunties. Recently been very irritating but seriously a great Singh. One of the 2 Pasir Rians.

Chang Cheng: I thought he was okay till his gang came. Aiyo, well, dude if your late for school you are late. Still, no matter how late, the dude keeps producing results.

Cheah Xian Jun: Class ChioBu. Threw his specs out the window. Well done. He is actualli damn cool lah. And we both proved that no matter how many times u fail A-Maths, you can still get your A's..HAHA

Cheang Yen Kenn: Poseur. He poses in class. A bit of a weird personality i have yet to comprehend. His bag is always so full i dont know how his back takes the daily punishment lah.

Chee MinXiang: Chairman Chee.One of the guys whom i spent 4 years with. His dress sense is controlled by his sister. Okay lah, influenced. He's anything but a sissy. Pull-ups to the max. MX. Charlie.A great 4d dude and 2H fan. Class Secretary.

Chen Xianyi: Troop Leader Chen. Haha, this guy is always quarelling with Eng Hwee and MX. One of the few scouts that i actually admire.

Chew Zijie: So quiet but his voice is so deep. The guy that super pays attention. The only thing i want to know is how he stays awake even in Bio!

Chong Chao Xiang: Gay(happy) partner. Always calls me a bitch. Shares hentai, anime and the same taste for girls. Both of us are also competing to see who gets laid by Miss Japan first. Ha!

Daryl Tan: Another of the Motley Crew.(CX is one of them). HAs a dad who is in constant correspondence with the teachers. Learnt the art of sleeping from him. Trying to be a beng. Magnetic earrings and what nots. The other guy in class besides me to date older girls.

Edwin Eduardo Kalisaran: Edo! The oppurtunist. Worlds best defender. Thats for sure. Has a very hearty laugh. Definitely will miss it.Half of the Indon pair.

Eric Tan: Haiya. This guy. The emo of the class. He bleedy gets on everyones nerves when he opens his mouth and is always the first guy to shed tears in emo moments. People get a girlfriend to cure being emo he gets a girlfriend then he turns emo. Still, he's my staff sergeant and ya, he's ok lah. CHEM ROCKS!

Eugene Koh: Gorilla. SHE fan. And still gets 6 points for fantasizing about them. Fellow NCC member who enjoys looking at Ren Hao spanking other people's buns.

Daniel Foo: Faniel Doo. Astro clubber and the guy i owe alot to in salvaging by triple sciences. Still i enjoy wackin him and will definitely miss disturbing him and post bewildering questions to him.

F.U Dong Yang: Cool surname. Perfected the art of sleeping in class. Sifu, take me as your apprentice. Still, he irritates by constantly comin to school late.

Gautam Venugopalan: 9 A1s. Nothin more to say(how bout passing me 2 of those)

Kenny How: He's seeing a counsellor for bad handwriting. Will later publish the shrink's results here.

Jarren Loe: Huge B.Loe. My boss the tampon case owner. Uber nicenicenice guy with stupid and corny comments and always picked on by the teachers. Always neglects class monitor duties but one of the greatest student leader's ever produce by the fine instituition that believes in NIL SINE LABORE.

Jayakanth S/O Loganathan: His name is already an amaths question. Constantly makes known his latest sexual escapades to the class. We find it too disgusting. Need masturbation tips?. Ask the pervert.(hey!Thats what Mr .Thiru calls him and he actually responds to the word)

Reuel Kong: Ah kong/Ba Pau. Ok, The guy that got dunked and butt shown to the CCTV as we tore of his undies. Thanks for the memories of seeing u wither in pain as yer underwear ripped a the hands of your fellow classmates.8 of them to be exact.

Lau Chia How. AIG, Son of Andy Lau(SERIOUS!!). Super nice maths rep letting me copy all the lastest homework. Though he aspires to sing, i think he farts a nicer tune.

Gavin Lee: 4D and VS soccer star. Porved that PSLE score does not matter.Chinese Mat.

Low Wee Kiat: Left us

Matias Arya Pradana.: The other indon half and the scholar that wants to go TJC! YAY!.

Miao Hong Jiang: Chairman Miao. One of the 2 china scholars whom i actualli like. Super nice guy lah.

Mohd Izzat: Class mat. Another of the Motley Crew. 4 Years and he's become a MAT from a NERD. Crazy when reacted with Daryl. Hobbies include punching Christopher and letting Ren Hao Hump him.Cant sing for crap

Mohd Faizullah: Fai. Claims the class has only 3 indians and 1 punjabi.(jayaknath definitely not here) me and him were called Zhu in china cause they cant say our names properly.Quiet but lethal and has a fetish for pinching everyones nipples. And flicking them...etc..

Shaun Oon: KimChi. Dropped the only science he passed. Shrewd and swindling businessman. Cant sing for nuts.

Christopher Saw: Fat. RSAF.Thinks he is so damn hot when he is actualli flooding the parade square with his sweat. Class punching bag.One of the Motley Crew and a true friend though he kinda takes up the whole place. Farts like he breathes. Contributing Factor to PSI hitting over 100.

Song Yitian: Chinese Scholar that constantly insults mothers. Sigh. Hates Kwok.

Sontipat Supanusonti: Class treasurer. Swindler. Sending class funds to thailand to finance coup and pay Thaksin for being a "very good" PM. Holds the record for most number of MCs.

Tan Eng Hwee: Dickhead. 4 years and he's still a dickhead. But he is uber smart. Will miss wackin that head.

Daxter Tan: Rich Dad, Poor Kid. Super frank with his comments and suspected gay. Actually he loves the computer more than he does girls. Doesnt want to drop Bio to constantly frustrate Miss Leow.

Jim Tang: No comments

Teo RenHao: Final member of the Motley Crew. Suffers from Hypeactivity and loves to hump everyone in class as wella s initiates taupoks. Irritates people to the max and originater of the term NArmi.

Wang JieHao: Class Bee Hoon caterer. Fellow Mutton and uper helpful in class.

Wee Hui Neng: Neng. Vice hockey captain and super kiasi. Will always enquire about classes and the fact that he sits behind me, i get to copy homework. Thanx Neng!

Wilson Chai: Newcastle United fan and national sailor. I dont get him man. Serious. Always disturbing Xianjun to make Yen Kenn jealous..????

Wong JunKai.: Fellow 2h and 4d dude. White guy which studies together with me and gets the same points before moderation. haha. Just think that he should relax abit.

Xuan Dazhong: Ughh. Professor of what u tell me.Cockiness?maybe. ughh

Zhang Zhenan: Last but not least, my favourite chinese scholar. Really helpful with everything and shares the same sentiments as me about our Bio teacher.

To all you guys its been great and you guys rock. Will miss the times but theres more to come.(No jayakanth and stop crying eric).

Graduation Part 2

2006-10-15T13:25:00.000+08:00

So, end of part 1 and here's part 2.

Had the rehearsal for the Speech day segment. Bleedy cold in that hall with a fan that just wouldnt oscillate and that the aircon was on full blast. Ughh. As usual it was a case of wait to rush and rush to wait. Afterwards when the bleedy thing finally got started they offed the fan and was starting to dozed off. One video after the next it was really an EMO moment back to back. It really created warm fuzzy feelings and all the encouragement the teachers gave was Uber great. After all that, it was the Victorian Anthem for the very last time.Teared at the last part, but then..

SPELLING CHEER!!!

From then on, it was back to back cheers infused with the Victorian Spirit and everyone letting the euphoria pump within each of our veins and the groundbreakin stomps.

Proceeded to reception where everyone had a quick meal and went on camwhoring. Was proud of Chia How who actualli had guts to take a photo with Tan Ching Boon.. Haha. Well done dude. Went to look for Faith Nah as part of Daryl's dare but too bad she went home. NEVERMIND!. Decided to storm the teachers room but our efforts we doused by one very wet blanket. Not to be detered. Went to the discipline office taking photos with Mr. MAran, messing Mr. Chia's table, camwhoring with the loudhailer and spewing racist jokes. If that werent enough Kong got wedgie by 8 people in front of the CCTV. We then carried him down to the ecopond adn dunked the dude. Haha, it was great. Even Jarren went in later. Graduation was Uber.

Graduation Day

2006-10-14T15:06:00.000+08:00

Ah,well, We've graduated

So, the morning was kinda bland with all the sorts of briefings at the auditorium. Back to class, had Mr. Low giving out the report card's personally to all of us. Mr. Ee came in to give a 15-min english lesson.

Now the fun part.

Mr. Chan came in and with full of Gusto we greeted him. He gave out all the testimonials and certs and lotsa chocs. Mr. Wong then dropped by to give out the Royal Australian Chemistry Quiz plaques. Izzat was smiling with glee. Haha. I got the high distinction award.(technically, im top 5% in the world. Ha!). Then we had the class presentation. That left me with a sudden rush of memories of all the crazy things 4D had done. Well, we are THE different top class. For the fact that the class is not full of muggers or cocky-bastards. Its all down to earth people who do not give a hoot about all the school rules.(Broke like hundreds of them yesterday)

Then we took a class photo outside of the class. Well, its kinda screwed up to have the same birthday as the Graduation day, right Reuel Kong? So, we taupoked him in full view of everyone. That ass wore undies of steel cause both eric AND izzat just couldnt rip it. So, went back into class and had some final emo moments. When Mr. Chan was about to leave the class, Renhao shouted to taupok Mr. Chan.Too bad for him Mr.Chan shouted taupok Renhao!SO, we gladly obliged.

And that was the first half. To be continued

Waiting, Fightin, Loving

2006-10-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

As we dwell within our shadows,
The rest move along without
Waiting for the end to propagate
The sirens blast so loud

Cursed, abused used and defunked
I pray silently within the stereo
Boomin out shouting out
The audiophiles come with sorrow

Pre-Graduation Jitters

2006-10-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

Pre-Graduation Jitters- Suddenly i dont wanna go through with it. Its like leaving my sanctuary.Officially. Raking up all the weird emotion. Who would have thought that 4 years ago i walked into Victoria School(VS) with a happy -go-lucky attitude and being all innocent.(NOT). 4 Years on and my vocab has widen from orgasms to defining kinkiness.(no thanks to all the raging hormones) I cant imagine what life would be without the frustrations and the horrendous jokes face daily. However i am given some respite from the stupid whistles of Chia and how he ensures a 30 cent fine is paid up. Victoria, im gonna miss ya.

Learning Something new

2006-10-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

well, movin on without pain is an impossible. so, dont bother.

SoS to God.

2006-10-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

God, in this month of holiness, i beg you to accept my prayers for a small and meaningful gift. Company and not loneliness. Not a day has passed in this month have i not beg for you to hand me your blessings in the form i wish for. Thats the only thing i ask for. Please God. Only that one thing.

Shuning

Brownian motion

2006-10-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

As air particles collide with smoke particles...
FUCK!.. I JUST WANT CLEAN AIR!!

Anyways, starting to mug and if u asked me .. i actually enjoy muggin now... well, thats life, books and crappy shite.

Hidden within this place are my secrets...find it.. and be engulfed by it.
i want her, yes its still shu ning

She's the dumbest bitch on earth!

2006-10-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

Thats a quote from Izzat yesterday. All you people should know very well who he was refering to, no prizes for guessing. So, deliberating where to head to with such crappy results (13 points before mod). I just hope i can get into TJC( For College, For Nation!!) and in the words of Mas, "i dont wanna be in green for 2years". That coming from someone who has survived 4years in green. Jarren has sudden urges to get to NJC now. Dude, just because our principal was from there and he too hated maths doesnt mean going there will do our interest in maths much. Still havent broken my record for sleepin in Bio class. Daxter is feeling sadistic,"I just realised me dropping Bio will make her happy, so im gonna torment her for the remaining lessons. HA!" Good job. And im gonna try and screw the PAE exercise by puttin RJC and Hwa Chong as my first few choices.. Lol. Imagine an arab with 1/4 chinese blood stuck in a pure chinese school and a lost indian who studies chinese. Well, i'd feel yellow put it simply. Ah, well, im against racism.

Enough already...

2006-09-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

So, the results are screwed. Im not gonna dwell on that. Made a crony 4D class video and the trademark of the top class(*cough*cough*) is a taupok video. Well, we were lackin ideas. Cant seem to sleep due to the fact that the past few nights were filled with utter loniless and void, and when i finally dozed off, the remnants return for vengeance and there she is staring at me wanting me to redeem myself. No words said. Absolut silent treatment. Worst part, this actually freaked me out cause these things dont usually bother me. Waking up in a cold sweat i will stay in bed for an hour staring at the ceiling too scared to return to my sleep, afraid she might return. I cant take it anymore. Im thinkin of other stuffs now and why must she of all people come and make it worst. If she said i forgive u or sumthin along those lines or maybe "hey, it was a misunderstanding on my part" i would be the happiest kid in town.(singapore). Ughh. Enough on that. Here's anice convo i had with RSAF and it happened 3 times today.

Me: Dude, the teachers are freaking me out
RSAF: Have some Faith lah!
Me: It's Nah!

also, something quoteworthy from Mr thiru after some time," Be prepared for the unprepared" and my favourite, " if a chinese man can eat prata why cant and indian man eat mooncakes".Logical.

Rantings after so long..

2006-09-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

So, since its now post prelims, i can rant all i want in this little void in cyber-space. Looks like its goodbye VJC, even TJC( George hates this place). Now lets start intorducing MJC, TPJC, ITE simei(woops). Well, i have nothing against them lah, its just that we are supposedly academically inclined and them more technically inclined. On that note, well, i really hope that at least MJC lah. Its a good JC with an OM worst than Chia which really counts against them when im tryin to decide my PAE. Arghh, and the worst part is the teachers are MOCKING(im not over-exagerrating) us. Especially teachers who we call by their inverted names. Nope, im not gonaa say it here.

Well, now, other than the academics, and the part of people mocking others, im still unable to comprehend the fact that the thought of someone after so long is back haunting me in my dreams. Well, every Ramadhan that has passed kept puttin me in a position of unrelenting loneliness. So i wasnt surprised when the fellin came back again this time. However, im still being perpetually disturbed by thoughts(concious/sub-concious) that she is somehow is trying to get back at me. Gosh no everytime i pass the medicine cabinet the thought of her screamin at me still gives me the jitters. All i want is redemption and to be liberated from this mess. The only conclusion i have now to all this, Guilt with a capital G.

3 weeks.

2006-09-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

Yup. Thats the time between now and the bleedy thing that decides the rest of my life.

West Grand Boulevard

2006-09-19T19:58:00.000+08:00

After emaths went to Roxy Square with Yane, Adri and Shuib. Adri wanted to get his guitar strap and i needed strings and picks. So, once there, I FINALLY got my hands on the West Grand Boulevard CD. Also met Dharma and Erik from WGB. Spent sometime talkin to them and actually got them to sign my CD leaf!. Those are 2 rad dudes. I had to assure them i wont sell it on Ebay. haha, well, its a great album with 10 tracks, my favourite being the funk song.

So we lost

2006-09-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

We lost. So?. The only thing im most bothered about is the fact that for the next few days, Jarren's already limited vocabulary will be limited to the confines of the Emirates dressing room.Revolting.Oh ya, and i forgot to wish Yen Kwang Happy Birthday!.Calvin Han lah..

The Big Match

2006-09-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

Put it this way, why is it must i blatantly repeat that no matter how much i give due repect to arsenal as a team of acceptable quality( its not that im pro arsenal more like anti-chelsea) but the fact remains that arsenal can never beat Manchester United( WOHOO!) with a squad lackin the likes of Bergkamp, Keown, Seaman and the rest who HAVE quality. so ya, 3-0 to Manchester!

Victoria School Prelims 2006

2006-09-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

Social Studies down, and everythin else to go. Made everyone panic by screamin that merger and separation was not coming out.( IT DID)! haha. Had a gd laugh.E-math tmr. Ughh

Victoria 2003-06

2006-09-09T11:33:00.000+08:00

So, while i was muggin in the canteen with all the other Victorians, a thought hit me that this would onli continue for a nother 2 months, but afterwards, where do we go? Victorians displaced yet they all come back together. Well, grad is comin and im lookin to it yet dreadin it at the same time.

Orbituaries

2006-09-06T21:32:00.000+08:00

Sheesh, now my blog is starting to look all like an orbituary page. I mean coz im here again bloggin when my neighbours are in sorrow over their loss. I treated him very much like the maternal grandfather i never had. He was a good man. So yea. Now, i think im gonna sleep.

Steve Irwin

2006-09-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

Crikey, the mate is gone.

Well, at least he went doin the in the midst of doing the things he loved. He loved animals and i admire him for that. Though everyone sees the funny side, the serious side of him is the one that gets things done. Well, G'Day Mate and the world says good bye to the Croc Hunter.Crikey

Back

2006-09-03T20:07:00.000+08:00

So, im back after a week.
2 reasons for not blogging

Championship Manager
Korean Drama Serials

So, now its all hard work. All Hard Work.

Salivary Amylase

2006-08-28T20:49:00.000+08:00

Well, thats the thing. In the canteen just now, Eng Hwee was crapping with the My Hump Feat PM Lee Hsien Loong. Then, some form of visual relief came. However, as the enjoyment left the canteen, a look of disgust evolved, all thanks to Saw Yuan Qi who placed his hand under my mouth constantly reminding me not to drool. Ass.Physics Prac was cool. Narmi seriously thought me sumthin. And i have given up on Bio.Actually, long time ago

Straighten things out

2006-08-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

Well, i got my hair(fringe) straighten to perfection. Just realised my hair actualli covered half my face lah. And it was brown in color. Cool. after which the hair cream which turned it dark brown. Shouldnt ahve trimmed the fringe.. damn.

Still aint getting it right

2006-08-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

Well, had Chem prac today and boy was it crazy. I pippeted distilled water. Contemplated whether i should have broken the test tube. Should have. Singapore idol also is laggin in getting things right.

Great Graphics in Hardware format

2006-08-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

Saw the most beautiful girl i have ever seen today. Note that im not using the word hot as that is more like a babe thing. This girl had the nicest white cheeks with minimal baby fat and flushed with the guilt of red wine. With hair not too long and clear eyes, her smile was infused with innocence and a hint of sexiness. Oh well, i will draw an analogy. All these girls are like prized jewels which can only be seen by the masses, but owned by only one. However, this is one jewel which can never be placed with a monetary value neither can it be bartered. Too bad underneath all that beauty, the substance can never be measured. Oh well, the onli substance i need are non-contaminated ones for tomorrow's Chem Prac(prelims).

Some things i have to quote, Ren Hao: "Ma'am , you must learn to let go". That was the final conversation for Bio. I could have sworn Mr. Thiru was sad that it was our final History lesson. He will always be the best History teacher, as every year, makes history with the students at the results day.

Lame-ness

2006-08-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

So, the day is saved once again by the lameness of Wei Zhi. Haha. I agree with Jiehao to totally get Mr.Ee a joke book. I commend his effort though his jokes just dont cut it. Be it lame or jsut plain funny. And finally, tomorrow will be the last bio lesson.(today was the last math and english lesson). When i said it, the class burst into song," Hallelujah, Hallelujah". Haha, "VIVA LA LIBERATION". now im addicted to the peppermint chocs. Shall continue to mug. and mug. and mug. Life is sad these days other than the occasional anarchy in 4D.